Thursday, March 15, 2012

Prayers were answered and within three hours of arriving at the birth center to see how labor was progressing, our second daughter was born - quickly and easily and I felt better afterward than I've felt after any of my other labors (less than ten minutes of pushing appears to make a difference...)

Her oldest brother is pleased, because he wanted a sister so the family could be 'three boys and three girls.' His obsession with symmetry continues, though, since now he thinks she needs to have blue eyes so we have three people with green eyes and three with blue. All three of the siblings are pleased, actually, and were just a tad overwhelming for their new sister in their efforts to shower affection on her. (This is better than when we increased from one to two, and our oldest asked if we could take his new brother back...)

Anyway, I am filled with gratitude to have my little one safe in my arms, and for the difficult pregnancy to be at an end, finally. I'm very grateful for all prayers said on my behalf, too!

Monday, March 12, 2012

It looks like labor is getting started, for which I am very grateful - I did not want to be pregnant another couple of weeks.

I always experience some trepidation approaching labor and delivery - that prayer that neither the baby nor I will end up as a negative statistic. It's not the idea of dying myself that bothers me, because whenever that happens it is going to be an adventure. No, it's the idea of having to leave my husband and children behind. I know God doesn't need me around to make sure my kids grow up to follow Him, or to be healthy and well-adjusted - and I sure do appreciate having been given the gift of marriage and motherhood, two things I never expected out of life when I was a young woman still deep in the throes of depression and doubt. So, I try to set aside the fears an active imagination brings to mind, reminding myself that no matter how long this gift is mine to hold on to, it is a greater gift than I ever expected, and has been a greater source of joy than I ever thought possible. I cherish the years I've spent with my husband and the children we've brought into the world together. I'm praying our newest child makes his or her way into my arms safely (and soon!)